We, we, we, so excited!

Yall must be thinking that Chris is gay for having a title reference to the song Friday, but I am truly excited this month. Why? It's because I'm finally going HOME! It's been a long time, and dang do I miss HOME! Although I'm only gonna be back for a couple of weeks (21st May to 4th June), I'm still extremely grateful for this opportunity. It's gonna be a busy two weeks but I hope that I manage to see all of yall when I get back. For those interested, do let me know in advance coz I am almost fully booked!

Hmm, excited and anxious about my homecoming. I can say that a lot has changed these couple years. I wonder how's everybody gonna react? Will it be me that's changed or everybody else? Will my friends and family be able to accept the changes in me? Will our relationships still be the same? All these questions haunt me everyday throughout my solo journey these couple of years. I have tried my best to make a lot of upgrades in my life with minimal change to the positives in me (if there are any). I guess there's no point listing the changes here and I'll just have to let yall see for yourselves. It might even end up the case that yall will think that I didn't change at all and it was all in my head. Which would be a good thing, I guess?

I feel like my thoughts are all jumbled up and it's hard to organize what I want to say here. There are so many stories that I would like to share with yall, but it's hard to decide where to start. I think I'll just start with the recent stuff. I just got back from Amsterdam and Brussels with Yew Leong, Chia Khuan and Siew Wen (yes, the legend of Kwang Hua Siew Wen). It was my first trip to Europe (outside of the UK, that is) and it was an interesting one. It was kind of an eye opener. AND NO I did not experience the red light district AND NO I did not smoke pot (Yeah I'm a loser, I know). Then why was it an eye opener? Well let's just say that it never fails to intrigue me how different guys are from girls. I thought I already knew we were extremely different, but I didn't know we were THAT EXTREMELY different, if yall know what I mean. I can't even find a valid way of describing how different we are. Fellas tell me you do understand what I am saying, please. All I can say is girls let their emotions get in the way way too often and I totally tip my hats off to YL for the way he handled things, he is officially a gentleman now! Just wait till I get the chance to tell yall the story, it would bring tears to your eyes to see how YL has grown *sniff sniff*.

I will be posting some of the pictures and videos we made on the trip soon but for now, check this out. It was a video we made at the Heineken Experience and don't ask me what we were doing coz we weren't prepared but I laughed my a$$ off when I watched this. Do watch it fast coz they will take it off after awhile. http://www.heinekenexperie

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Today was a surprisingly fun day. I was rushing to church but was blocked by a bunch of marathon runners. And there were so many of them that I had to take a different route, adding to the delay. But when I finally got to my church, it turns out that the marathon passed by my church and the people of the church actually set up a long table and had around 30 people handing out water to the marathon runners while cheering them on. So I rushed over and helped out. There were basically 3 types of helpers, people who open up bottles of water and fill them into a big container, people who filled the cups up with water, and people who stood on the streets to hand the cups to the runners. It was really fun the way we cheered them on, especially the way the children did it. My favourite was like:" C'mon! Keep your butts moving!". In the beginning there were just too many runners coming at once and it was so busy that most of us just did our jobs while shouting the random "You're doing great!", "Keep going!", "You can do it!". But after the massive waves came the walkers who were already out of gas. By this time there were less people so the people pouring the water and filling up the cups could just focus on clapping and cheering them on, as these were the people that needed encouragement the most. There were all sorts of interesting people running the marathon. There were people dressed up in army uniforms with their rucksacks on, there were people dressed up in Captain America, Spiderman and Superman costumes (NOT JOKING! and they were full suits as well), and the most inspiring runner I saw was a girl who was handicapped, but still ran it with a t-shirt saying I'm running to raise money for cancer patients. I was truly inspired and touched by her spirit. As humans, too many times we look on the dark side of things and neglect how blessed we are. We look at the things that we do not have and forget to be grateful for what we have. So everyone, I know that sometimes things just get outta control and when it's really hard to be positive, just remember that there are a lot of people out there having a tougher time than we are, and we should be grateful and give everything our very best. These thoughts really got me going these couple of years, especially last year as it was quite a depressing year for me. I just wanted to share that with you guys, hope yall don't think I'm F.O.S. (not Factory Outlet Store, it's Full Of Sh!t).

More updates coming soon. Will post some more epic videos as soon as I get my license for some video editing software. Till then, stay tuned and take care guys! See yall soon!

First mobile post

Heyo what's up everyone?

Hope everyone is doing just fine. Wonder what y'all are doing at the moment? Still studying? Or started working already? Do update me in the comments/kpkb zone aight?

Since I'm typing this on my way back from work, this is gonna be a short post. Yea not those few pages long posts that I used to do.

So many things have happened these couple of years. Mostly hardship but there were a few silver linings as well. Kinda sad that I didn't blog about it as I do tend to forget chapters of my life. I will try to update you guys when I'm on my computer, too long for a mobile post.

If you're wondering why I stopped blogging, it was because there was too much drama surrounding my posts. This blog was initially meant for storing raw memories of mine. By raw I mean unprocessed KPKB as well as fun/funny/happy/emo moments that we shared. However, little did I know, people who did not know me well stalked my blog and made their own interpretations on my character, spreading all sorts of sh!t about me.

These people don't know me, and do not have the right to judge me. I say anything and everything on my mind and my friends understand the meaning behind it. I never have to explain myself to my friends. I hope that those who read my blog this time around respect that so that the kpkb and emo can continue without restriction. LOL, thats not really a good reason but seriously, spreading nasty (and untrue) stuff about people isn't nice. If you wanna spread nasty stuff about people, make sure that it's true, like what I like to do in here. ;D LOL just kidding. But seriously, that Tommy ar, really makes people wanna kick him in the nuts. Haha just joking again. Guys, please don't go kicking Tommy in the nuts the next time y'all see him. Not coz it's mean or anything, I'm afraid your foot might get stuck. LOL! Just playing Tommy, you know we love you.

Alright, enough about Tommy's nuts, gotta get off now, its my stop. Take care guys! Stay tuned for updates! Peace!

Renovation in progress

Hey guys,

How's everyone doing? It's been awhile.

Been thinking of blogging but never had the time. All the emo bottled up inside of me has got to be let loose! So I've decided to start off by revamping the site.

On my list at the moment:

1. Gotta get some music in this joint! The old music widget ain't working no more.

2. The KPKB zone seems to be spammed. Probably will ditch that. Until I find something to replace it, yall can leave your comments within the posts (if at all there is anybody out there reading my blog,that is. Don't want people to think I'm perasan. LOL)

3. Change the theme, probably font as well.

4. Thinking of making it a private blog. Too much drama last time.

Any other ideas for improvements? Please leave them in the comments section if you do.

Till then, stay tuned. Peace!

Update: Pretty much done with renovations... but am always open to ideas for improvements... thanks

Happy Birthday bros!

Hey guys,

First of all, Wanna wish my fellow bros a very happy happy birthday!~ Happy Birthday to Jia Yee, Yew Leong, Ying Zhou, and Loong Siang! Best wishes and hope u guys enjoyed ur birthdays even in the absence of me! Here are some memories with these guys.

Me and Yz zho LJ taiji during new year

Me and Yl saving Yz from zho LJ taiji

Me and JY the MAN makan at Langkawi

Loong Siang's most innocent looking pic ever!

Time passes so fast, and before u know it, JY has become a MAN! LS is still his goofy old self I presume. Hope Yl and Yz are doing fine, haven't heard from them much. They don't join our overseas forum already. I just know that YZ very suei only. Hope his 21st bday changes that.

I know that I haven't updated any posts lately, it's been so crappy here in the uk and its hard to find the mood. Life sucks and I miss everyone and everything back home. However, the thought of going home after studies makes the days pass easier. Take care, everyone! Please recognize me even if I gain 20 kilos and lose a lot of hair in this year.

Coincidentally Perfect

It's been awhile since I poured my memories into my blog. So long that I've forgotten much of August, the last month that I spent in Malaysia. Although I only remember bits and pieces of it, I can say proudly that I've lived a PERFECT 21 years in Malaysia before going over to the UK. Why perfect? Well, like all my blog posts, it's a long long story and you'll have to tune in to know. I spent most of my last month in Malaysia going out with friends, and remaining of it with family and preparations. Glad that I was able to spend some time with friends from Local Uni such as Ching Hong, Eric, CheeLong and Ls, and friends from primary such as Tc, Lts, Woei Sheng, and Sih Aw, brothers such as Yl, Yz, Kc, ciong kaki before I left. I even got to spend time with Tommy, and he really never fails to amuse me with his unique way of thinking. Want an example? Of course you do! Tommy came back on the day of Chin Loong's bday party. And because of the way Tommy neglected his Klang friends the last time he was back, Leong Hoe kept kaopeh/bomb/shoot-ing him. Then when he came to realize about it, his mere reaction was:" Hmm... Don't know why Leong Hoe keep picking on me. I think it's probably because I have a girl friend and he doesn't." LOL, anyone?

It was a real emotional last month in Malaysia, all the more with Tc leaving as well. We organized a surprise birthday/farewell party for him and had a great time. We sent him off the next day and it was really something to see 20 grown up men crying like babies. Almost everyone had a long history with him. As for me, we go all the way back to primary 5. He was my rival, and we disliked each other for no particular reason. But we eventually became friends by accident. Though I changed school after the first sem of primary 5, I was coincidentally placed into the same secondary school with all my primary friends, and we were never separated from then, until that day. He was a brother to all of us. As he was about to leave the platform, memories with him flashed by, and he was there in almost every moment of my life until then. Then I pictured a future of mine without him, and the tears just kept flowing. We all embraced him one last time and he was gone. Though he will be missed, all of us will always be brothers, and I believe that our paths will be merged once again in the future. We'll be waiting for everyone to finish their studies, and we will continue our grand journey together.

" REAL MAN CRY FOR BUDDY, NOT FOR PUSSY" - One of the many quotes of TianYaw which will follow me for the rest of my life

Soon after that, it was my turn. After the departure of Tc, I was certain that I was gonna cry buckets when I were to go down that road. However, we all decided to have a "Happy" theme for my departure, and the initial plan was that nobody was to cry on that day. But, as soon as I hugged Andrew, his tears started flowing and my eyes were starting to water as well. Luckily, the next was Chee Long and the tears just faded because he is really the funniest guy ever, even just looking at his jiao bin (bird face) could make me laugh. I hugged my brothers, my family and said my goodbyes, holding the tears in until I was well out of sight. No doubt it was sad to leave everything that made my life perfect behind, and I had no idea how this experience would change things, but it was a gamble made for our future.

My 21 years in Malaysia came to an end. The journey so far has been pretty rough for me, but as always, coincidences happen that helps me continue on with faith. Most people would know that a lot of unbelievable-drama-like-coincidences happens in my life. Many of them happened in Malaysia and led me to who I believe is the love of my life. My journey here has not been shy of coincidences as well. I was coincidentally on the same flight as SiewYin, and thank God I was. I would be totally lost if she wasn't there. The 14 hours flight was already horrible, landing in London at 11pm was even worse, as they're no trains or busses at that hour. Good thing I got SiewYin and her friends to watch after me while I slept on the floor of the airport till the next morning. Then, I followed them over to Birmingham and I learned a fair bit about life in the U.K. from them. They even brought me to a Genting casino in Birmingham twice in two days. Talk about bad influence, eh? Just kidding! Here are some pics of Birmingham. Will upload Sheffield pics in the next post.

I then made my way to Sheffield on the 10th of September and Zhong Hann met me at the Sheffield train station. Zhong Hann was a senior of mine during secondary and his mom is also friends with my mom and he coincidentally goes to the same Uni as I do. And I'm really lucky that he was here. He showed me where I was gonna live and took me back to his place for dinner. The place that I was gonna live in was a dump. It was filthy, dark, and the furniture was all broken. However, I went over to Zhong Hann's place and it was really nice! It's the same kind of house, with such a big difference. So I was determined to transform my dump into a home. So after dinner I made my way back home, only to be frightened to death. The neighbourhood was pitch black and the entrance to my home made me feel like I was gonna get stabbed and robbed any time. I dared myself to enter the house. As soon as I did, things got worse when the chilling feeling of entering an empty and dark 3 storey house ran up my spine. I tried to fight the feeling as long as I could, but I inevitably ran back to ZhongHann's place and stayed there for the following 3 days until my housemates arrived. Sipeh kokji ar!

I got the chance to walk around the city a bit during those 3 days. Thoughts of home flooded my mind as I walked along the cold streets of Sheffield. It seems like a warm place (as a nice place to live in, because there is nothing warm about the weather, the weather is freezing!). However, it still lacks the warmth of home, friends and family. And as I was wondering, I got a message from Liang Chern's friend who stays in Sheffield. We didn't know each other but he invited me for dimsum lunch and since I had close to no friends in this city, I agreed and went over to meet him. And as I reached the place, I noticed that he (Neow, pronounced as Neo, not niao) brought along some friends. And out of all people, I saw Suzanne there. Another coincidence! Suzanne is my mom's friend's daughter who I met at my birthday party. To be honest, I never expected to see her ever again, let alone to see her in Sheffield. She happens to be visiting a friend of hers who happens to be a friend of Neow who happens to be a friend of Liang Chern who happens to be my buddy since primary. LOL! Small world? I think not. Huge coincidence? Indeed. So we had lunch together and I got to know a few more new friends - Eric (another one!), Steven (a much better one!), Shawn (another one but totally different!), and Rex. They were really nice people and they invited me for some bakuteh at their place in the evening. Since I was from Klang and I was pretty homesick, why not get some bakuteh? It was much better than having the crappy and not to mention expensive food here. So I went over to Steven and Eric's place, and OMG it was heaven compared to my dump. they shared this apartment and its living room was transformed into a entertainment area. They had a wicked projector with sound systems and even a PS3! We had some real good bakuteh and Shawn even made tong sui. So, the day of surprises ended with Shawn walking me back to Zhong Hann's place. He gave me a really bad impression at first because he kept inviting me to join him at the strip club. But, it turns out that he is actually quite a nice guy and there was a reason for him to persuade me into going to a strip club, though I don't know what his real intentions actually are. It seems that he knows a few of the strippers there, and they actually are graduates from the Uni of Sheffield. Unbelievable! At first I was thinking, why would anybody with that high a level of education work at a strip club? But it's actually because the earning power is there. They earn around 900 pounds a day, which is pretty ridiculous if you'd ask me. With pays that high, they should have courses to offer degrees in stripping! LOL!

Now, for the conclusion of the long story. Why would I say that my life is perfect? Even though there were many flaws and unpleasant things that happened to me in the past, I would never be the person I am today if I did not experience those things. I am grateful for everything I have, my family and friends and I am truely blessed with the guidance in the form of coincidences that happen to me. Therefore, I can't have any regrets, but will try to gain knowledge and experience from every particular event that happens. Take care my friends, and live everyday without regrets, and I'm sure your lives will be perfect as well.

The week of my 21st Birthday

Friday, July 24th - The eve of my 21st Birthday party.

Allow me to start with a behind the scenes of the party. It was real last minute and my mom planned to cook for the party. She was asking me how much people was coming, and I hesitated to tell her, because I knew that she was definitely gonna freak out if I told her that I accidentally invited more than 40 people. Hence, I told her around 30 were coming, and well, she still freaked out. I thought because there were so many close friends overseas and off at Local Uni, there wouldn't be such a big crowd, but then call here a bit, call there a bit, then OMG there I was with a friggin' long shopping list and hours of shopping to do. I practically shopped from morning till night for the food, occasionally throwing more stuff than ordered by my mom since there was an extra 10 people that she didn't know of.

Saturday, July 25th - The day of my 21st Birthday party.

Spent the whole morning till evening helping out with the cooking for the party and dang I was tired even before the party started. Managed to get a 15 minute nap before the guests arrived and man it was a busy busy night for me. Didn't have much time to eat because had to entertain so many people that night. Considering how people say that the host of the party rarely enjoys the party, I can say that I had a pretty good time. I'm really sorry that I couldn't spend more time with every one of yall but I hope that those who attended had a good time as well. Here are some pics of the party to substitute the hefty amount of the words that I normally use.

After the party ended and my house was cleaned up, we went up to my room for the usual forum.ing until 5 A.M. before sleeping. The forum members that were present this time were me, Chee Long, KC, TC, and our new member, Thuan Shih. We missed Han Wei deeply as he was the most enthusiastic and gek dong forum member of all. However, rather than myself being the one to contribute unbelievable stories, it was Chee Long this time who told us his experiences that he kept from us for so many years. LOL! I can't really say much unless you're a member of our forum, but let's just say that he didn't only make people turn into a lesbian, he even gave her asthma. SIPEH GENG AR!

Sunday, 26th July - From that day onwards, the leftovers from the party was my breakfast, lunch, and dinner for the week. My mom says that my guests are really clever, they finished the lamb, satay, and chicken wings and left us with a lot of meehoon, spaghetti, curry chicken and rendang chicken, and I mean A LOT! Pretty sad that I didn't get to eat much of the lamb as its the BOMB, as always. Thank goodness Chee Long and KC saved me from the leftovers at night by bringing me to get some jeng ikan bakar in Klang Jaya. We talked the night away as usual before they went back to Kajang.

Monday, 27th July - Got news that Loong Siang came back from UUM due to H1N1 there. Went to have some ang tao peng with him, his uni mate (Qing Da), Tc and Yz. Invited them over to help me with the leftovers at night and we were chatting about everything from old times, geeky scientific stuff, people nowadays, etc. We always get a good laugh when Tc tells us the story about him, Loong Siang and Poh Gui. LOL! If you haven't already heard it, here it goes.

Primary 6, Tc sat next to Poh Gui(PG) while LS sat in front of Tc. LS would tease Tc non-stop about liking PG everyday while Tc would deny it. Then after months of teasing, one night LS called Tc up.

LS:" Tc, if you like PG, nevermind de... U can tell me"

TC:" Nola, siao meh? only u will think that I like PG."

LS:" Real or not? Hmm...*Long Pause* Actually, I like PG."

TC:" ...."

Suddenly, another character was involved. Loong Siang's dad was actually in his room listening in on their conversation.

LS's Dad:" *Accidentally giggles* kekeke"

LS:" C*B** DAD! "

*Click* end of conversation.

TC:" ..........."

LOL! Hope you all enjoyed that story as it gets me everytime! However, I'd say the highlight of that night was when LS told us about Zhong Sun, an old schoolmate of us. I'll leave out the details because this kind of story, you'll have to hear it from LS. Seems that ZS has changed into a giant cannon, telling people all sorts of funny + out of this world BS about his new job to our old friends. Guys, if you get a chance to go yumchar with ZS, better do so, because you'll be in for a good laugh if you do.

Tuesday, 28th July - Went for bakuteh with LS and Qing Da (QD) at Yap Eng, Sentosa. I have to say that it has one of the best dry bakutehs in town. You guys ought to try it at least once. Then went to HSBC to deal with some bank matters with my dad. And my dad totally spoiled my mood on the eve of my 21st birthday. Most of yall would know that I have a pretty messed up family. However, even I didn't know how bad it was, until this week. Well, I was in a state of denial that day, because I didn't want things to get in the way of me having a good time for my bday. Nobody would want that, agree? So I stayed in my room for the rest of the day, avoiding any contact with my family until midnight, hoping that everyone else would be asleep, and I could dwell in my own astonishmet of turning 21 and wished that the good times would continue to roll and my life could remain as perfect as it is.

Wednesday, 29th July - My 21st Birthday started off real great. The wishes were pouring in and of course, it was present opening time! Here are some awesome loot that I got for my birthday.

The max air bag and AJ Flight Lows. THANKS A LOT to TengChoon, ChengFong, YewLeong, YingZhou, WeeTat, ThuanShih, Kian Chuan, JiaYee, CheeLong, Eric, WoeiSheng, ThuanSiang, SihAw, TianYaw, ZheLiang, Shaun, Andrew, SoonWay, ChinLoong, HuiShian, SiewYin, ChiaNee and Zee Joo! Forgive and remind me if I miss out on anybody, because even Tc and CF aren't sure who shared it.

A surprise gift from Hanwei. Really touched when his mom dropped it off at my house. Wish that there was a way for me to hand him a present when he's birthday comes. Thanks a lot Hanwei!

A Sheaffer pen from Derrick and Kok Wei with my name carved on it. Thanks D and Robbie for reminding me that it's time to be a MAN! LOL

The Razer Lachesis from Kit, Wenbao, and Elaine. A real touching present from you three. My Razer Deathadder has been passed to Kit to help me claim warranty but it hasn't been successful for several months now. So long that I've forgotten how a Razer felt. The first time I plugged the Lachesis in and moved it across my mousepad, I was stunned for a moment, then "WOO!" LOL! That's the feeling of a Razer for me.

This Adidas perfume and deo was from Siew Wen and Xing Kang. Thanks for telling me how much I stink. LoL I really appreciate it. It smells great!

A wicked LBJ basketball from LeongHoe, Chris Hing, and Yap. Too bad I won't be around to use it. But I'll definitely display it on my closet and use it when I get back.

Surprised to see that I received two presents with the exact packing and contents (but different brands) by two different groups of people. Thanks a lot to SinYee and YeeSing for the Adidas shirt on the left and Thanks to WeiSiong, Edward, HaiKai, Mark and Kai Feng for the Nike shirt on the right.

A tiny cake, a bottle of Vitamin C, and a lip balm from my good friend Ching Ling. Though we seldom contact, but she's always so thoughtful. Hope that we won't lose contact because she really is a real good friend.

The crocs, perfume and cross are from my beloved mom while the caps are from my bro and finally the laptop from my dad. I don't really think that the laptop is considered a gift, cause I would probably buy one anyway. LOL! But as a filial son, I would like to thank my family for all the great gifts.

Last but definitely not least, a gift from my beloved. Thanks a lot to TengChoon and CheeKuan for helping her with it.

On top of that, I got a surprise from LS and QD. LS actually drove over to my place and sang me a birthday song with a slice of cake. We talked till 2 A.M. (again!) but we never run out of things to talk about. We've been close friends since form 1 and after so many years, I'm still proud of having a friend like him. I'm proud of all my friends, for that matter. They've always been there for me and have never let me down. We are indeed a unique bunch and I hope that we'll continue to stick together. After sending LS off, I spent some quality time with my girlfriend. It's been some time since we last had a video conversation and I really missed her. We've been apart for more than 6 months and its a real pity that she can't be here to celebrate with me. We chatted till the sun was up on my side of the world and my eyes couldn't stay open.

The day started without any plans. I woke up around 12 and found that there wasn't any food at home so I asked Tc whether he wanted to have lunch together. We went for Burger King with Eric and YL and man, the stacked up beefbacon burger was DA BOMB! Then they came over to my place and we wasted the afternoon away doing nothing. LOL what a way to spend my birthday. Then we went for dinner in Bukit Tinggi and something very miraculous happened. Tc accidentally locked his car keys inside his car and he doesn't have a spare key. He drives a pretty old wira and we were all wondering how he was gonna get back. Then Cheng Fong was absent mindedly using his car keys to play with the keyhole of Tc's wira and it suddenly was unlocked. LOL WTF! Our jaws all dropped for 5 secs when the door lock suddenly rose up. So, dear readers, now yall know what to do when you accidentally lock a wira's car keys in, just look for CF. The day ended with me, Eric and YL chatting outside my house unexpectedly. I was supposed to send them off but ended up outside my house chatting for more than an hour about a topic we call 2 Vs and a bad guy. And we all know who is the bad guy (臭男人). LOL! All in all, I had a pretty boring birthday this year but I'm not complaining as long as I'm spending it with friends. And I'm pretty grateful that my mom remembered my birthday today, though I didn't receive any wishes from my dad or bro.

Thursday, 30th of July - This was a SIPEH SUEI day for me. Yesterday night I was thinking to myself: "Hmm, I'm 21 years old already, better act like it." So I set my alarm at 8 AM. Woke up and had my breakfast, feeling great. Then I received a phone call from an unknown number. I thought I had nothing to fear, but i was wrong! It was F**king KBU! And they want me to attend an interview by MQA for LAN accreditation on next Thursday and Friday. On top of that, I have to go for a briefing tommorow. I don't even study there anymore and they expect me to help them. Totally absurd! The day only got worse as the streamyx never fails to amaze me on how crappy their service can get. And the way these suei days work is that it never improves. The situation with my family worsened. I'd normally hide in my room but this time they'd call me out to pick sides. Hmm, SIPEH SUEI!

Friday, 31st of July - Woke up friggin' early due to the sound of argument. Then I just shook my head and got ready to go to college for that stupid briefing. It ended at 11 but I had to wait for my dad till 3. Then I slept till I heard sounds of argument again. Sigh. What a disappointing ending to a great week for me. Have I really stepped into adulthood after turning 21? I really couldn't take any more of the crap that was happening so I escaped to Yz's house for the night. He truly is a great friend.

Their anger hurts my ears

Been burning strong for several years

Rather than fix the problems

They never solve them

It makes no sense at all

I see them everyday

We get along so why can't they?

If this is what he wants

And this is what she wants

Then why's there so much pain

I'm ripe with things to say

The words rot and fall away

If a stupid poem

could fix this home

I'd read it everyday

Slow revival

Been trying to revive this blog for ages, but never really seemed to have the mood nor time. Today I finally decided to play around with the blog layout and templates and guess what? I accidentally deleted some of the stuff on my sidebar. Really ARGHNABEHWTF! Hocai I managed to remember some of the stuff that got deleted. However, I did lost the links to the blogs in the "Other Emo Bloggers" sidebar. So, I hope you guys would leave me your links at the cbox or in the comments area, Thanks!

Been wanting to jot down everything that happened these past 7 months (and counting if I don't finish this post) but it never gets completed. Will try to sum it up in the following posts though it is kinda impossible to express the infinite drama and countless emotions that occured lately. However, that's the beauty of life, ain't it? It can't be felt just by reading about it through books or watching it through movies. It has to be experienced. I was pondering restlessly about this just yesterday night. My mom asked me whether I wanted to have a party for my 21st birthday next week and it suddenly hit me. I'm so friggin OLD! So I was lying in my bed, thinking what have I done with my life and I only could remember bits and pieces of my life (Damn my bad memory!). And its funny how our mind works, or at least how mine works, as when I look back on things, everything that happened to me, good or bad, it all felt good. I guess I can say that I'm blessed with the opportunity to experience every single scenario that has happened in my life and brought me to the point where I am now, even though the point where I am now, is pretty much, nowhere! But, it feels pretty good being nowhere sometimes, with nothing to stress or worry about, I just hope that I don't stay at nowhere for too long. =)

And as for my life, friends and family make my life. They mean everything to me. The other day, after we had a tiny BBQ gathering at my place for Kelv's farewell, he said something to me that just pierced through my heart. He said that he doesn't know when's the next time we gonna see each other, as well as the others. At the moment I just laughed, and said that he comes back every half a year while I'm only going overseas for 1 year this coming September. His reply:" Well, I'll see ya when I see ya". Well, Kelv's just the coolest-non V-metamorphosizing-after-secondary friend that I have. But, thinking about it yesterday, it might be a long time before we see each other and our other friends. Everyone seems to be so far apart and who knows, they might decide to work overseas or get a P.R. over there. And I might not even be remembered over time. Hmm, it's a sad thought, but a possible one. Any way I can get my friends to sign a "Friends For Life" contract with me? And if you're reading this and wondering if I'm dealing with selling people's souls and stuff, don't worry, it's nothing like that.

I always notice people posting those kind of "friendship forever" stuff and I have to admit that I really doubt some of those people's sincerity, but deep down I do wish that it's possible. Dear friends, we've had so many great memories together, hopefully the memories don't end here at 2009. If there's anyone that can pull the "friendship forever" thing off, I'm betting big that its us. Before this post gets too sentimental, I better sign off already. But before that, is everyone free next Saturday the 1st of August? I'll probably be having my birthday party on that day. Do confirm with me soon. Peace.

UPDATE: It's changed to this SATURDAY 25th of JULY due to unforseen circumstances. Sorry for late notice. Hope u all can come